may showers

"may showers"Single by Ayesha Erotica
Single
Artist	Ayesha Erotica
Recorded	2023
Released	December 10th, 2023
Genre(s)	Hyperpop • Bubblegum-bass • R&B • Electropop • Drum-&-Bass • Breakbeat • Euro-trance
Length	2:34
Label	Self-released
Writer(s)	Ayesha Auciello
Producer(s)	beats by boobie
Singles chronology
Previous	"Snooki" (2023)
Current	"may showers" (2023)
Next	"I Wanna Rob" (2023)

"may showers" (stylized in all lowercase) is a single by Ayesha Erotica. It was released as a SoundCloud exclusive single on December 10^th, 2023, to her now-deleted personal SoundCloud account "AyeshaOnline69".

Background

Surprise Release

On December 10^th, 2023, Ayesha announced on Twitter that the song was out: "new songie, 1/3 this week <3".

During a live from January 22^nd, 2024, a fan told Ayesha that they liked the song. She replied: "Thank you! I'm doing "may showers" live, on the 1st. I'm excited for that."

On March 22^th, Ayesha made an Instagram live and stated that the song would be uploaded soon to all digital platforms.

Theme

The song depicts Ayesha, who initially had hope and commitment to her partner despite the pain surrounding them. However, as time goes on, she came to the realization that she needs more love and something more serious than this relationship.

The chorus, "I'm finally out of the rain, I understood what you mean when you say, 'It's over'," conveys a sense of liberation and clarity. Ayesha has gained a deeper understanding of her partner's feelings and agrees that the relationship should end. The phrase "never again" suggests a determination to avoid making the same mistakes in future relationships.

The phrase "Thinking 'bout them May showers" could be interpreted as finding solace or healing during the month of May, symbolizing a fresh start and an opportunity to make peace with oneself. It implies that instead of clinging to a relationship that no longer serves her, Ayesha is choosing to make amends with her own emotions and self-worth.

Lyrics

[Intro]
You're special
You're the only one
More useless and even bigger waste of flesh than I am
A hikikomori like you is even lower than a stray dog

[Verse 1]
I was so down to stick it out with you
Even with all my pain surrounding you
I kept it together long enough
But I knew I needed a little more love
I wanted something a little more serious
So I have to switch on you and now

[Chorus]
I'm finally out of the rain
I understood what you mean when you say, "It's over"
And never again
And I feel the same when I go sober
Thinking 'bout them May showers
Thinking 'bout them May showers
Thinking 'bout them May showers
Thinking 'bout them May showers
I should've left when I could
(But you made it so hard; Ooh)
I should've left when I could
(But you made it so hard; Ooh)

[Verse 2]
And it’s not the same
And finally embrace my shame
Finding out that I was worth so much more (Ooh)

[Chorus]
I'm finally out of the rain
I understood what you mean when you say, "It's over"
And never again
And I feel the same when I go sober
Thinking 'bout them May showers
Thinking 'bout them May showers
Thinking 'bout them May showers
Thinking 'bout them May showers
I should've left when I could
(But you made it so hard; Ooh)
I should've left when I could
(But you made it so hard; Ooh)

Trivia

• Fans speculated that the song was about Ayesha's relationship with her ex, Brendon Jones, however Ayesha later denied it on a Instagram live-stream she made on February 10^th, 2024.
• The artwork and dialogue used at the intro of the song is a fragment from the 2006 anime NHK ni Yōkoso!, with the character Misaki Nakahara, which actually despicts a similar relationship depicted within the song.
• "May showers" could be a play of words on the phrase "April showers bring May flowers." This proverb refers to the notion that April's rainy spells encourage flower growth in May. It's frequently used to bring hope for the arrival of spring and the blossoming of plants and flowers following a rainy spell.
• On a Instagram live made in May 2024, Ayesha said that "may showers" is one of her favorite songs she has ever made, saying that it was very genuine on her feelings and her emotions.
• The style and vibe of the music can be possibly inspired by PinkPantheress's music style, since it's known that Ayesha really likes the singer and it's music.