"funeral" (stylized in all lowercase) is a single by American singer-songwriter Ayesha Erotica under her alias, "Zuzie". The song was released on December 21st, 2024. It was uploaded to her YouTube channel, "it's zuzie".[1]
This single was the final release before the singles from the album horny.4u, which is set to drop in 2025.[1]
Background[]
On December 20th, 2024, Ayesha announced the song through a YouTube link posted on her Instagram story:
"already submitted this one to drop on streaming officially Jan 1st, but wanted to get it out of my system before all the h0rny music comes out next month, love yall❤️❤️❤️".
The song's YouTube's description reads:
“ "hey. i was gonna wait till this officially drops on january 1st... but really wanted to get this one out as it's a genuine effort & means a lot, i've been going thru a lot of shitty things in real life and mentally, and didn't expect to live thru the end of this year, but i did and i'm not mad about it lmao. it will be on spotify etc, but it doesn't really match the sexy/horny/porny singles i have coming out directly after it, so i'm considering it an unofficial release and dumping it here. i wrote this one about someone i lost in love and i really hope they hear it and we somehow resolve things between us even tho shit ended really badly awhile ago. they probably won't but that's life and it's good to at the very least speak my peace. love ya'll and don't worry this isn't the last one this month." [2] ” — Ayesha Erotica, 2024
Lyrics[]
[Verse 1]
Show up or don’t
I’m gonna set your plate and I won’t eat a bite
No I’ll starve
In the dark and alone
Dreaming of sharing your breath
Blowing parliament smoke at the floor
You took a flight to the ocean
And I took a drive with him but it wasn’t right
I tried to hide in the open
But you declined
To even try to find me
[Chorus]
Now in everything
And everyone
I scream your name
And imagine what we could have been
Now it’s been a year
And I’ve had enough
If I see you again
I’m handing you Yellow chrysanthemums
And rosaries, I want you home with me
I miss you totally
I cry in my tweety pajama pants
And honestly, I know you’re haunting me
I thought you wanted me
I hope I see you at my funeral
[Verse 2]
Pacing around
Tryna forget your cigarette kisses on the crown of my head
I tried to stay down but I felt abandoned
Beads on your hand in my nightmares
Is it my fault that I wanna move on?
When you told me that I’m not what you want
And you came back only for a minute
With a burnt out vape and a dumb explanation
And I don't do coke anymore
If I did it would just take me back and remind me
Of the love that I couldn’t give you
But demanded you give me and now I’m stuck in
[Chorus]
Everything
And everyone
I scream your name
And imagine what we could have been
Now it’s been a year
And I’ve had enough
If I see you again
I’m handing you Yellow chrysanthemums
And rosaries, I want you home with me
I miss you totally
I cry in my tweety pajama pants
And honestly, I know you’re haunting me
I thought you wanted me
I hope I see you at my funeral
[Bridge]
I remember the first time you ever kissed me in your dumb ass Charlie Sheen button up-shirt
And you reminded me of every dream guy I ever made up combined
I miss you baby
[Outro]
Show up or don't
Audio[]
Trivia[]
- This song is about Ayesha's relationship with Brendon Jones.
- It's the first song from the "it's zuzie" YouTube channel that was officially released on digital platforms.
References[]
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Mixtapes | I Dream of Zuzie |
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Singles | "I Wanna Rob" • "Zuziecide" • "gigabowser" • "HOUSE PARTY" • "shawty" • "tap tap revenge" • "bitches" • "take 6" • "pack u" • "funeral" |
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Artists | Zuzie • Yvncc • That Kid • CLIP |
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Tracks | "bitches" • "Dirty" • "Everybody Dead" • "Fer Sure" • "gigabowser" •"HOUSE PARTY" • " pack u" • "Regret (Pt.2)" • "Runaway" • "Shine" • "Used (Rework)" • " Zuziephobia" |
Possible Tracks | "Die Slow" • "I <3 Nerds" • "Go Nuclear" • "Stop Playing Games" • "Shakiez" • "Only You" • "That Fuckin Slut" •"Luv U More" • " Pick Me" • "Sizzler" • "Take My Life" • "Verse of the Day" • "WTF" • " Fresh'd Off The Dome" • " tap tap revenge" • " take 6" • "funeral" |
Cut Songs | "shawty" • "Like Snooki" • "Seven Years" |